From car accident to potty training to evil chest cold, the last two months have been…less than fun. The other day, I kind of lost it – too much stress, too little sleep, and an ever-increasing pile of overdue work (again). I didn’t want to cry and upset Serenity, so I (rather stupidly) thought to punish myself for my perceived failures by running around my house taking pictures of all of my “failures”.
What I saw through my camera’s viewfinder surprised me…
It’s true. There are shelves on my living room wall that are only half put up – from this past spring. Coats live on the couch because I still haven’t hung the hooks I bought months ago, because of the boxes of donations still sitting in front of the wall they belong on. The pretty peacock decorations I was thrilled to acquire are still sitting in weird places around the house, because the buffet I want to redo and decorate with them is piled down with books and products I still need to review – that belong on the shelves that are half-installed over the piano in the living room. Treasures from our life together vie for space in my office area with samples of lotion, potty training sticker packs, thermometers, and Play-Doh. My dining room table is buried under board books, curtains that need altering and hanging, and a gift for our brand new little nephew (whom we have yet to meet, thanks to being sick). My kitchen…well, dishes pile up, it’s what they do, but lately it seems Nick and I together can’t keep a handle on them. A stack of boards-meant-to-be-photo-ledges shares space on the floor beside my desk with an awesome vacuum cleaner I received to review more than a month ago, and haven’t yet had a chance to unbox. And where pictures should be displayed on pretty ledges, I have a physical therapy chart taped to the wall, to help me recover from the car accident two months ago. And through it all, my sweet toddler peeps at me around the wreckage.
And then suddenly, Serenity snaps me out of my pity party and I realize that I’m being awfully hard on myself, and that despite the mess and the ever-growing to-do list, I’m doing a good job as a mom. She tells me she has to go potty…
Serenity first asked to use the potty almost a year ago, but lost interest after the first week. We’ve spent the last year playing chicken over the issue of “where does the poop go??” and I’ve done more laundry and scrubbed more upholstery and carpet than I care to remember. It’s been a smelly and frustrating year, but we kept at it.
And last week, Serenity started potty training for real – no more diapers except at night. Can you hear the angels singing?! I could – for all of three days before I realized that she wasn’t going to one of those (probably mythical) kids that potty train in a day or a weekend.
By the end of the first week, I was ready to give up. And that was the day I went crazy with the camera – and the day she finally recognized that she needed to use the potty and TOLD ME SO before she went. #sweetsuccess
She climbed up on the toilet and asked me to take her picture – “Cheese!!” And she got a Skittle, and a sticker for her potty chart. And I realized that even though my sink is full, my daughter is happy and healthy.
So when Serenity asked me to come up to her room and play, I took her hand, and left my unfinished projects in the dust…
Sometimes the important thing isn’t whether you can “do all the things” – it’s about the people in your life, who need you more than they need a picture perfect home.
I laid on the floor in the hallway outside Serenity’s bedroom for almost two hours, while she played, danced, sang, and talked to me. Two of the best hours I’ve spent in a long time. ? She’s a marvel, this little one. Funny, clever, beautiful, with enough imagination to creative worlds. I love her, and she loves me…and that’s what matters. I’ll eventually stop being sick and my injuries will fade, and I’ll get caught up on housework and blog reviews. But in the meantime, if I have to choose, I’ll pick Serenity and Nick every time.
How’s your week going?
*Some items pictured in this post were complimentary for review consideration, however this post is not a review, nor is it sponsored in any way. I’ve linked up with The Jenny Evolution, Create With Joy, Mama to 5 Blessings, Baby Baby Lemon, and Sakura Haruka.*